My life – My choices.

This is normally not something I blog about, because let’s face it, no matter how many strong opinions I might have, I usually leave them to twitter and this blog has mainly been used for me to review books and movies and share songs that I like. Today, however, I have something I want to talk about, and this time – it’s serious.

I know that all of you only mean well when you tell me that one day I might change my mind about things, and trust me, I get it, you find it hard to believe that my view of life is so different from yours. That’s ok, I understand, but here’s the thing: This is my life. I live it the way I want to, and I don’t need you to tell me, over and over, that I will change my mind about things.

Pretty much every time family meets, someone’s gotta ask the question: Do you have a boyfriend yet?

No, I say. I still don’t, and no girlfriend either. I’m not interested in having one. I’m not interested in having a relationship. Let’s face it, the only person I could ever imagine living together with is Juuli, because just like me, she’s not interested in this whole thing with having a romantic relationship with candlelit dinners followed by sex and eventually having children. If we would ever actually get married, as we talk about at times, it would be on a friendship level. It would be to get everyone off our backs. It would be to live together with a best friend who doesn’t pressure you to ever have a big family with kids and grandchildren and all those things that neither of us want.

I’ve been saying this for years. I’m now 24 and I’m still not even a little bit interested in ever sharing bed with someone. I’m not interested in having someone to kiss goodbye before I go to work or fall asleep with in the evening. I’m not looking for that fairy tale ending everyone else seems to want. And kids? No. I never want any. I don’t like kids, not even a little bit, and you can tell me how many times you want to that it’ll be different when they’re my own, I still don’t want any.

Now to the part to why I write this: None of this is any of your business, and every time I tell you I don’t want any of this, you have no right to tell me that I will change my mind. That’s what everyone tells me every single time. “You will change your mind.” or “We’ll see in a couple of years.”

I’m not saying you’re wrong, you might very well be right. In a few years, I might change my mind, what do I know? But the point is, you have no right to keep telling me this. Right now, I don’t want any of this, and you have to respect this. You have no right to tell me this isn’t what I want, or will want in the future. You have no right to ever tell me this is something I’ve come up with now, that it’s a phase that will pass, because the only thing you do is making me feel like my choice of life, the way I want to live it, isn’t good enough. That it’s not valid. That I have to change my mind one day to live up to how you want me to be. To how I should be.

Stop telling people they will change their minds. Instead, accept that this is what they want of life, accept that this is who they are. Let them live it the way they want to, and when someone tells you they don’t want kids, or a partner, or anything at all that you find normal, let them know that it’s ok. It might not be how you would’ve lived your life, but it doesn’t make it wrong. It doesn’t make their choices any less valid.

Stop making others feel like they’re doing life wrong. People aren’t the same, no one will ever be exactly like you and we have to accept that everyone is different. Some wants to have five kids, a house and a life partner, some wants to live alone for their whole life, and that’s ok.

So the next time someone tells you they don’t want what you wanted when you were their age, don’t tell them it will change. Don’t tell them to wait a few years. Smile, be kind, be interested in their life choices, because just like you, they only want to live their life their way. Let them be happy.

And yes, maybe one day they will change their mind, but that’s nothing you can know anything about. Not now, not ever.


Review: The Lake House

The Lake House
The Lake House by Kate Morton

My rating: 4 of 5 stars

Living on her family’s idyllic lakeside estate in Cornwall, England, Alice Edevane is a bright, inquisitive, innocent, and precociously talented sixteen-year-old who loves to write stories. But the mysteries she pens are no match for the one her family is about to endure…

One midsummer’s eve, after a beautiful party drawing hundreds of guests to the estate has ended, the Edevanes discover that their youngest child, eleven-month-old Theo, has vanished without a trace. What follows is a tragedy that tears the family apart in ways they never imagined.

Decades later, Alice is living in London, having enjoyed a long successful career as an author. Theo’s case has never been solved, though Alice still harbors a suspicion as to the culprit. Miles away, Sadie Sparrow, a young detective in the London police force, is staying at her grandfather’s house in Cornwall. While out walking one day, she stumbles upon the old estate—now crumbling and covered with vines, clearly abandoned long ago. Her curiosity is sparked, setting off a series of events that will bring her and Alice together and reveal shocking truths about a past long gone…yet more present than ever.

A lush, atmospheric tale of intertwined destinies, this latest novel from a masterful storyteller is an enthralling, thoroughly satisfying read.

Judging by the reviews I’ve read on this book I think it was good that it was the first one by Kate Morton that I read. My sister’s been telling me over and over to read them, (or rather, listen to them on Audible) so eventually I did, and even though it took me pretty long to get through the whole thing, I liked it quite a lot.

I must admit that unlike many others who I’ve seen review this one, I thought the first half of it, if not more even, was pretty slow and boring. I had problems keeping up with the characters, what year it was and who they were talking about for quite a while. There were so many names, and sometimes it would be back when they were kids and then they were grown up and it jumped back and forth a lot and so many different ones that it took me quite a while to figure out who was who, and what part they had in the story, eventually I got a hang of it, and when the clues started to make me come up with my own suspicions I finally started to get a lot more curious about how it would all fit together in the end.

The ending to the mystery was, in my opinion, pretty brilliant. I found myself shouting “What?!” Out loud quite a few times at that final conversation between the characters that would eventually lead to all the answers they were looking for, and when that part was over I was left out of breath. Which is absolutely amazing, I love getting that kind of feeling when I read (listen to) a book.

However. The very end was too perfect to me. I don’t like the fairy tale kind of endings where everything is sweet and sugar. It was a bit too perfect, and the epilogue, together with the confusion I felt in the beginning, is what took this book down to four stars instead of five. I didn’t like it at all, and I think the story would’ve been much better without it.

But it was still a book I’m very happy I got through, and I’m looking forward to download another of Kate Morton’s books to my library in the future.

Review: The Scorch Trials

The Scorch Trials
The Scorch Trials by James Dashner

My rating: 2 of 5 stars

Solving the Maze was supposed to be the end. No more puzzles. And no more running. Thomas was sure that escaping meant he would get his life back. But no one knew what sort of life they were going back to…

Burned and baked, the earth is a wasteland, its’ people driven mad by an infection known as the Flare.

Instead of freedom, Thomas must face another trial. He must cross the Scorch to once again save himself and his friends…

*Contains a few Spoilers* 

I think this is the very first time I’ve read a book and not having a single favourite character when I finish it. When I read The Maze Runner I could at least say that I really liked Minho and Newt, but after reading this… well it’s not like I like them any less, because they’re probably the only characters who feel real to me in this one, but I don’t have enough interest left to even care about characters anymore.

It sort of feels like this story was written as a way too long filler, just to make sure the series ended up as a trilogy instead of just two books (plus the prequel) and that the whole thing was just made up while being written. The twists and so called suspense is just annoying, every time you feel like they might finally get a moment of rest there’s something new to almost kill them, and in the end I barely even bothered to read it properly, I basically skimmed half of the book through just to finally get to the end of it.

I’m not gonna say all twists were bad, because they weren’t. Some of them did make me hold my breath and at times I was really curious about what would happen, but after reading about half of the book the curiosity was replaced by annoyance and the feeling of just wanting to get the whole thing over with.

The story is fast going, you don’t really get a chance to understand what’s going on before something new happens. You get no real answers through the whole thing, it rather wakes even more questions, and it’s actually quite exhausting to keep track of it all. There are so many questions now, and this book didn’t make you understand it any better at all. It’s all just very confusing, and not in an interesting way, just annoyingly confusing.

Then of course, when you think they finally are safe, after once again being given empty promises, the author ends the book with yet another pain in the ass cliffhanger. Did you know that you can end a book in a way that makes people want to keep reading without making them want to rip the book in pieces? Apparently this author doesn’t. They’re supposed to be safe but suddenly we find Thomas locked in a room, away from the others and once again without explanation. Now where have I read this before? Oh that’s right, the whole damn book.

I guess I sort of have to read the last one as well, to find out if the author in some way can actually save this, but I can’t say I’m even a little bit excited anymore. I really just want the whole book series to be over.

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Suicide Squad

*Contains Spoilers* 
(but no major ones) 


I’ve never been much for superhero movies, not even a little bit. My sister’s tried to make me watch different ones so many times and I’m just never interested. However, when we were at the cinema watching Now You See Me 2 a while ago we saw the trailer for this one, and I was like… A movie about villains? Now we’re talking!

I must admit, though. The movie itself didn’t really impress me at all. The story line was pretty boring in my opinion. It was the same old as always, good guys wasn’t as good as you might think, bad guys wasn’t just bad, totally “unexpected” twists (which everyone could figure out from the very beginning) and way too much action and effects to distract you from the fact that the plot was boring.

So. I’m gonna focus on the characters I liked instead, because they were what made the movie worth watching, even if I didn’t like the story itself.

Let’s now keep in mind that I’ve never read any comic books or watched any superhero movies or anything at all. I’m not a fan, never been and will probably never be. I will probably be way wrong about most of them and you can yell all you want about me not understanding them or knowing about their original traits or whatever – this is what I picked up in this one movie and that’s what I’m gonna write about.

Harley Quinn


I’m gonna be honest and tell you that it was thanks to Harley I wanted to watch the movie to begin with. I saw her in the trailer, thought she was amazingly wicked, and decided I wanted to see this one.


I wasn’t disappointed. Actually, I was surprised her characters was more than just completely crazy, but also caring, in her own way, and obviously in love with the Joker. I’ve actually never known this, like I said, I’ve never been interested in any of this, so I was surprised to know she was actually in love with that guy. I mean, it’s not a healthy love, obviously, but still. She’s completely brainwashed but the moment when she was crying in the rain because she had lost her puddin’ it really got to me, and the things she would do for him… insane. But it makes her a much more interesting character, and Margot Robbie did the role so great.


She was crazy, weird as fuck and funny as hell. She made the whole room laugh several times, and since some moments were pretty damn intense, those moments were needed. So yes, I can clearly see why so many love her in this movie. (and maybe other movies, too, what do I know?)




The Joker


Okay I’m actually not writing about this one because I liked him, but because I can’t for the life of me understand what the hype is about. Is it because it’s Jared Leto who’s playing him or what? Well, in my opinion, he wasn’t that good. I mean, I like the character himself, I’ve read some about him and he seems tricky and interesting as hell, but in this movie? I mean, I get he wasn’t supposed to have some major role or anything, but I can’t say I’m very impressed at all.

Sorry to all the Leto lovers I know I have following me (on twitter that is, no idea if they will ever read this) but I don’t think he was as amazing as everyone says. I don’t understand what you’re all so excited about, at all.

Floyd Lawton/Deadshot


I must say I’m embarrassed over how long time it took me to see that this was Will Smith, but when I did… well, as always, I think he’s an amazing actor and I think he did this role perfectly. Also, this character was a lot more interesting than I thought. I love that he’s got such a big weakness and that it’s the only thing that can be used against him. I like that, it shows that even the bad guy are humans, and that was probably the first hing I reacted on in this movie that I really, really liked.

The guy’s got a weakness. He’s human. He might be one of the bad guys, but he’s a human being and no matter what, he’s got feelings.



Chato Santana/El Diablo


Now here’s something I didn’t expect. A villain who didn’t want to evil anymore. Well, not that it’s completely new, but I didn’t expect it in this movie. That’s something I really, really liked about this character. He had a background story, and he had a reason not to want to use his… powers? can you call it that? Anymore. I truly enjoyed that.


He was also this dark and creepy one who you never really understood until he explained it. He wanted to die in peace and do no more harm, but why? I was so curious to get to know more about him, and I can honestly say I wouldn’t mind watching more about him only. Maybe I’ll sit down and do some research one day. I’m not particularly interested in the universe itself, but there are some characters I wouldn’t mind knowing more about.



Rick Flag


I don’t know if I’m a bit biased because the guy is half Swedish, but I really think the actor did this role so, so great.  He was my clear favourite and when I first saw him, I whispered to my sister, “I hope he’ll be in this a lot,” and thank god, he was. I was so fascinated by him, and the choices he made in the end… Ugh, I really, really liked him. A lot.


There simply was something with the way he talked to people, how he made them listen to him even when they didn’t really want to themselves. He was an obvious leader, and not only because he actually was the one to make the calls, but in the way he spoke and knew what decisions to make, it was clear that he was made to lead others. In one way or another.


The other characters of the movie… well, I didn’t hate them, but they didn’t really impress me either. Sure Captain Boomerang had his moments, I laughed at how he was always drinking from his cans and Killer Croc had a few funny comments, but they didn’t really capture my interest much. They made a great squad, obviously, but that’s pretty much it.



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So. In general. The movie wasn’t amazing, but it was easily worth watching. It didn’t take my breath away and I’m not dying to see it again, but I’m probably gonna watch it again someday in a year or so, just for the characters sake, and I didn’t feel like I had wasted my money when I stepped out of the cinema. I also sort of hope that the ending means there will be more because I do want to see more of them all, but I’m not sure I’ll go to the movies for it. Unless someone *cough* my sister *cough* will pay for it, then I’ll go with her, of course 😉

So yes. If you’re interested in watching it, I think you should. If you’re not really super excited over it… well, I’d wait for the DVD.

Review: The Maze Runner

The Maze Runner
The Maze Runner by James Dashner

My rating: 3 of 5 stars


If you ain’t scared, you ain’t human.

When Thomas wakes up in the lift, the only thing he can remember is his name. He’s surrounded by strangers—boys whose memories are also gone.

Nice to meet ya, shank. Welcome to the Glade.

Outside the towering stone walls that surround the Glade is a limitless, ever-changing maze. It’s the only way out—and no one’s ever made it through alive.

Everything is going to change.

Then a girl arrives. The first girl ever. And the message she delivers is terrifying.

Remember. Survive. Run.

*Includes Spoilers* 

I just realised I never actually reviewed this, and now when I’ve finally gotten started (and almost finished) the second book I thought – maybe I should get this thing done.

I have some problems deciding what I really thought about this book. At first thought I loved it. I fell in love with the story and the mystery and the whole world with the maze and secrets and a puzzle that’s gotta be solved in order for them to escape. I loved following the clues and see the characters figure them out, and I felt the excitement when we got closer and closer to the end and a hopeful escape from the place they’d been sent to.

So when I first finished it, I was absolutely amazed. Now I’m reading the second book, and I’m starting to think back at the first one and wondering, did I really love it as much as I first thought?

Looking through other peoples reviews I remember things that actually did bug me while I was reading, but that I sort of forgot about when I got lost in the excitement.

First off, one of the things I find most important in a story ever is really poorly written, and that’s something I didn’t realise until I was half way through the second book and started to think, and then I went back to skim through the first one and I figured… hell this is so crappy written, I’m not even sure why I didn’t see it the first time. This thing is feelings. What I find the most important when I read a story, no matter if it’s a book, a short novella or a fanfic online, feelings is what I focus on the most. I don’t want the writer to constantly tell me what’s going through in their characters minds. I don’t want to read that someone is scared, happy, confused, sad or angry. I want to understand it anyway. I want it to be shown in the way the character moves or talks. I want it to be written in a way that I feel it myself, so I can put myself in the mind of the character I read about and feel what they feel.

In these books, so far, I don’t.

I’ve been completely blinded by all the mystery and need to find out what the hell is going on to focus on the one thing I always find the most important, and sure, creds to the writer for that, because it’s something that usually makes me stop reading very fast, but it doesn’t change the fact that it’s something the writer should’ve put some more focus on, instead of repeatedly tell us what he wanted us to know.

Thomas is pretty annoying, and so are many others. I got so sick of them giving him a “stop asking questions” kind of replies instead of just explaining what the hell was going on. Yes, I know it’s a part of keeping the suspense, but come on it’s not realistic. A whole place of young men and no one cares enough to take the time to explain some shit to the newbie? Nah, I’m not buying it.

And with that we move on to all the damn secrets and Thomas oh so conveniently remembering things from his past, just to not bore us to death. As it is right now, I’m starting to feel like I’m only still reading to find out what the hell is going on, but I have no connection to the characters anymore. That’s also a big ass warning to the writer doing something wrong, main characters dies and I barely even raise a brow. Then we have other writers that makes me cry, yell and scream at my book when a character I barely even knew I cared about dies… So that’s clearly something this writer needs to work on a bit more – to wake the emotions of the reader.

I feel like I’m not saying anything positive at all, and yet I actually claim to like the first book… let’s see. Positive things about The Maze Runner:

The whole idea – Even though I at many times feel like this could’ve been done a lot better, I do love the whole universe this writer has built up for us. The flare, The Maze, the world outside they don’t remember, Thomas being a part of WICKED (even though we don’t really know much about that yet), Theresa and Thomas having a special connection, The way the gladers have built up their life and have their own important roles, what happens if you get stung, the creatures only coming out at night, the different clues bringing us closer to a way out – all this I love. I just wish the writer had handled it better. I wish the characters felt more alive and that I actually felt something when bad things happened to them. I wish I had been afraid when they got stuck in the Maze over the night, I simply wish I had some connection to them at all.

The idea is great and the book isn’t bad. It’s really a page turned and when you’ve started it’s difficult to put down, and I do really recommend it, but I still wish it would’ve been… well… more.
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Pokémon Go

Guess no one’s missed the hype about this game, right? Well, here in Mariestad, where I live, we’re playing it, too. It’s actually quite funny – Boud, Niwy and I used to play this game, Ingress, which is pretty similar to Pokémon Go, and during the years we played I didn’t meet a single other Ingress player in town. I knew some people were playing, since portals got taken and all that, but we never met. With Pokémon Go, however, I’ve already met tons of people, and it’s so much fun to see just how many people that are out playing it.

So today, my sister (Niwy) her boyfriend (Boud) and I decided to have a Pokémon Go picnic. Meaning we sat down in the park with some nice treats and our phones and played – and there were so many other people there!

And of course, before anyone say anything, there are tons of other places with A LOT of more people than what we had here, but this is a small town in Sweden where you never see anyone in the park ever. The only ones that used to hang there were the town’s alcoholics, and now there are suddenly people everywhere! Kids, teenagers, adults! All of them! They’re there, and they’re hanging out together. Playing a game but also socialising, and trust me, here in Sweden, talking to strangers is not a thing, but this game has really brought us together.

People might complain a lot, and yes some of those playing are idiots, but in general this is really something special. People who are never out normally are now hanging in the park for hours, something our parents have failed with for years 😉 all thanks to a game!